I don't know.

I'm not in summerschool, I don't know if I can graduate early, you're going to be hours away from me in a year, my mood goes up and down all of the time, I feel out of place, I only have two or possibly three real friends, I don't get anything, I don't really like the Kings of Leon, my grammar and typing skills are going down the drain, I feel stupid, I feel annoying, I think you think I'm annoying, I feel useless.

Summertime.

Is here. I got a packet for summerschool, and I'm doing virtual school over the course of next schoolyear so I can graduate early. This year went by so fast. I feel like the first time I stepped into school as a sophomore was yesterday, and the next time that I step in it, I'll be a senior. Isn't that great? I can't wait to get this all out of the way.
I don't want to think about school though, so I'll tell you about my summer so far.

Cody, Catie and I decided to watch the electric storm coming in on the beach this weekend. It was surrounding us from almost all sides, and it was incredible. We just sat there and sipped at our pirates coconut cola, and watched it as we sat next to the lifeguard stand in the dead of night. As we were leaving, a drunk black guy said for us to get out of the water, and that he loves Cody. Cody loves him too. We invented a new summer drink, appropriately named, the Labbit. It's been a very good summer so far. I know this one will be a great one.

We went tanning today, and it was really fun. We, Cody Catie and I, just chilled at the Holiday Inn pool. We saw a few people there who we knew and just tanned and swam and had a good time. I shouldn't really blog about today though, because today is far from over. And It's Catie and I's 17 month anniversary. =] I'm so happy.

Well, I'm going to go. This is short, but to the point. I guess.
Bye.

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Three people have said they're proud of me this week, my mom made cookies, I got a super delicious burrito, I made advances with a certain someone, everything's great with my girlfriend, I think it's safe to call Cody a best friend, I think I'm doing good in Geometry, I'm getting my license soon, and life is bearable.

This week is awesome.

It's June already.

Last month flew by so fast. This month, we get out of school, I start summer AND virtual school, Catie and I's 17month is this month, and I'm getting my hair cut. Not trimmed, cut. And 17 months is such a long time. I'm so happy about it though, because I'm completely crazy about Catie. I bought her a really cute stuffed animal today, and I'll post pictures of it later after she gets it. It's super cute though. I thin it will be her anniversary present. Anyways, this school year flew by. One moment I was taking in all of the new things about the school year, and the next I'm spazzing about finals and how they're all next week, the last week of school. Life is crazy sometimes. And if all goes according to planned, I'll be a senior next year. Then it's off to the real world. I'm excited.

These past weekends have been crazy really really crazy. I'm not going to go into detail about all of it, but I'll give you most. On Friday I went to a friend's mom's funeral. It was really sad.Things like that just hit me hard. I hung out with her afterwards with a bunch of other friends of hers too. It was a sad day, but her mom's at peace now. I don't even know what to write about it. It's just one of those things.... Later that day though, I hung out with the usual crew (Blake, Catie, Cody) and then met up with Corinna, Nicky and Dylan. We had a lot of fun and hung out in Corinna's room for awhile, and then went to BN. I argued for what felt like forever but was actually about a minute about what kind of cheesecake Jody was selling me, and he was right. He usually fucks with me when I order things, so I definitely didn't believe him like that. I ate the cheesecake which was wonderful, and we left to go to the south end, where Cody's car was. Cody couldn't drive home for awhile, so we hung out down there and just chilled. We then left later and everyone went home. Saturday we hung out with Alex Monzon and her friend Macey, who was visiting from VA. We hung out down in Coligny, and had a boring night until an epic game of hacky-sack broke out among a group of like, 10 kids. It was crazy. Then we played in shopping carts and left to go home. On Sunday, we met up with Alex an Macey in the Tanger Outlets. Blake wasn't with us then, so It was just Catie, Cody and I. We picked up Cody Yeager, and he was initiated into the van. That means that you have to run and jump in it while it's moving with the sliding door open. Cody got in, and we took off. We met up with them and did some shopping, and had an epic adventure on the kids merry-go-round. All of us were hungry after all of the shopping and stuff, so we went to Sonic and saw Bebo. She's one of the coolest adult-ey people I know. Next to Mike Ropes. We all had magical Sonic food, and hung there for quite some time. Afterward, everyone went home and we said goodbye to Macey because she wont be back until next summer. I don't remember what happened on Monday exactly. Hopefully that isn't bad.

Moe's Wednesday this Wednesday was weird It was really awkward on the ride back. I hope I don't have to go throught that again anytime soon.

This weekend was great. I can't even express it. Friday, we went to Savannah for the Reel Big Fish concert. The show was amazing, and I took part in the friendly mosh about three or four times. I love moshing. This is the second time I've seen them live, and I hope there to be many many more. They're so good. Dan [the trumpet player] signed my shirt and Catie and I'd rabbit, Thor. It was so cool. We then did something awesome in public that I've never done before, in public and went to Spanky's for dinner. We stopped in a random shop where Blake bought this really nifty useful thing, and they had weird towels. Saturday, we chilled in Coligny almost all day after picking Catie up from work at two. We witnessed rent-a-cops get fired because of the really cool lady in Black Market Minerals, I put in a job application there, saw the rent-a-cops try to arrest some kid, and hung out in Cody's bus. Blake met up with us and we too a drive in Blake's car. We went to my house to get food for the game night that never really happened, and went back to Coligny to pick up Cody's car. We hung out there for a bit, and then went home. Sunday, Catie and I chilled at my house after she got off of work at four. All we did was finish and play Bioshock, and watch America's Next Top Model. It was one of my favorite Catie and Kara days. Cuddling with my lover and playing scary videogames is the best.

Speaking of Bioshock, Boishock 2 comes out soon, and I'm super fucking excited. It takes place through the perspective of a Big Daddy, which is this:
And they're making a movie out of the game which should kick ass.

I'm done here.
I think this is a successful update.
Later.

I'm going to fail my Biology final tomorrow. I know it. I can't study like this. I can't decide whether or not I should go to Reel Big Fish on Friday because you're working, I can't decide what to do tomorrow, I can't study for my fucking test, I couldn't even decide whether or not to get off of the phone.

I'm a shitty girlfriend because I couldn't realize how upset you are, even though I asked you so many times.
I'm such a shitty girlfriend for making a big deal out of you not signing my yearbook.
I'm a shitty girlfriend for talking about alcohol and seventh graders like it was not big deal in the bus.
I'm a shitty girlfriend for making you wish you stayed in your old school.

This week is suffocating me.

I haven't blogged in awhile.

Life has been kind of crazy lately. Not necessarily in a bad way, but it's certainly been hectic.

I've been hanging out with my friends on an almost daily basis recently. I'm happy with it, because we always do fun, interesting things. Like going to Coligny on the weekends. We chill at Java Joe's in the afternoon/morning and party, I guess, at night. It isn't really partying because there's only like 5 people. Anyways, it's still fun. IHOP is a Sunday tradition, for the most part now. IHOP is the greatest. I wish they still had their loaded country hash browns. Those were sooooo good. They have the greatest onion rings and mozzarella sticks. Now every Wednesday is Moe's Wednesday because of five dollar burrito day. $5.45 for a burrito, chips, and a drink. That's what I call a good time.

Cody, Catie, me and possibly Alex Wiggins are going to Hunting Island this weekend for a day trip. I'm super excited. This is like the milestone that we have to hit to make day trips to Savannah and stuff. Someday it will be Charleston, Columbia, and maybe eve Atlanta. I'm just really happy. It seems like things are taking off. School is just the problem right now. It's not even really a problem, I'm just freaking out about two things: Geometry, and where the fuck my English book is. I think it's in Amanda Maucerella's[sp?] locker. I need to start looking around for it, because my mom said she isn't paying for another book. She had to buy me a new one for Geometry because someone stole mine. If worst comes to worst, I'll ask my aunt if she could pay for it. I'll pay her back, of course.

I'm really hungry right now. I didn't eat dinner last night because I had Moe's at like, 440 and then I had a little ice cream on my way home.

Yesterday was a really good day. Catie and I spent some time together with just us. It was really nice. We took a nice nap too. =] Then we went to Moe's around 430 and stayed until about 10 or 20 after five. After that, we went to Cody's house and pmlayed Skate until about 800, where we left to go to Blake's house and pick up his omiPod so Cody could uploadhis music onto his iTunes. Around 920 or something, Catie's mom shoed up and picked me and her up and gave me a ride home.

Last weekend was crazy. I'm not going into too much detail about it, but I went to Grandma's like hardcore. We went to the Mellow Mushroom and had a deep conversation, and just chilled around. Earlier that day we somehow ended up with Caroline, Leah, and Mia. They were in Coligny at the same time as us and were searching for saometing we already passed. I found out a few gross things that I didn't want to know from someone. It was interesting. The night ended with McDonald's and peanut butter crackers, which have now become a food obsession of mine. Along with Frosty Frog grilled cheese, which is the greatest food ever. Goddamn, I'm so hungry.

I'm going to go, class is almost out.
Bye.

So you're nice and drive my friend home when his car breaks down, but when we got home you call me stupid, call me a slut, and say that I'm never getting a job and I can't think. Fuck this. I confide in you thinking that you wont turn it back on me like her mom, and you do. I'm done telling you stuff about my life. You can find it out on your own, because apparently you do. If it wasn't for my friends, not just her, my friends too, I'd show you how bad I can fuck up and how badly I can fail. Just today I was thinking how much better I'm doing and you bombard me with a ton of shit that isn't at all related to what we were arguing about.
I leave my clothes out of the hamper in the bathroom because I'm too tired to pick them up in the morning and at night. And picking them up all at once and putting them in the hamper makes me feel like I accomplished something.
You always feed my pets and I don't ask you to, and you don't feed them because they're out of food, you do because you want to. You started taking over my chinchilla when we first got him and I fed him everyday and gave him new water every three and have him two treats a day, but you took over and do it by yourself. You even give him fresh water after I just did, and I don't think you believe me.
I'm 16 and human. I forget things sometimes and you need to accept that. I'm not the super perfect little girl that you've convinced yourself I am. I fuck up and I deal with it. You don't have to.

If you find this, cool.
If you don't, I don't care.